Whew!

What a day! It was a good day though! I was up until 4 in the morning...just feeling uneasy about talking and just not feeling prepared! Good thing I didn't have to get up early and slept until noon! Then finished putting the power point together and spent some good time praying and just asking God for strength, cause I knew it would be a hard day! Got to church got stuff finished up and set up, fought back tears on many occasions. Sue Stockman was asking if I needed her to do anything else and I had to fight back tears at the thought of this is the last Wed I will be here to do all this. Walking around turning on projectors...just everything...made me sad...but I told myself I was not allowed to cry until AFTER I spoke..I knew that I wouldn't make it ALL night as I knew John was praying over me and if my girls starting crying, I knew I wouldn't hold it together...but I at least had to make it through my message. As I was leaving to get dinner, I got a text from my sister asking if there was a CFA on the southside...they had come all the way from Grand Rapids to hear me speak! Got back to church about the same time they got there...got to show of the girls..always LOVE doing that! Spoiled them with some ice cream! Worship was just awesome..not sure if it was because for the first time in a year I wasn't doing the media shout, but man..it was just good..I needed it...fought back tears again on the song Enough...God truly is more than anything I need or want. Managed to get through my talk without tears and everyone said I did a good job. I spread a rumor at the beginning and made people think that John and Erin were pregnant and much to my surprise that rumor didn't get all over...pretty impressed! Anyway, spoke on gossip and the effects of it and how we can work on not gossiping! Then John got up and asked all the leaders to pray over me and I looked back and my girls were balling...uh oh...the tears flowed...there was no stopping them then...we had cake to celebrate me and send me off and I got lots of hugs! Sara and Paul went on a date and took my car and brought it back with a full tank of gas...it was on E...they spoil me too much sometimes! I am so grateful for all the people that love me so much! I now have a headache the size of Africa since I have been crying all night, so I am going to bed!